SacBee Digs Deep to Find Bad Cop Story to Run

Yesterday, July 24, 2019, the Sacramento Bee published a “Breaking News” story about a dirty cop that was using his position to coerce women into having sex with him.  That behavior is not only reprehensible, it is criminal, but hold that thought for just a few moments.

The Bee initially tried to disguise their cop hate story as a “yay, this lawmaker is sooooo incredibly awesome (gush, gush) because he wrote a bill that will make sure sexual predator cops are held accountable.”  In fact, here is the exact quote:

“California Assemblyman Jordan Cunningham has proposed a bill that, along with an amendment to the SB 1421 police transparency law, would go a long way to better holding rogue law enforcement officers accountable for sexual misconduct.”

And from there, they delve into their “breaking news” story, about a Sutter County Deputy who, between 1996-2003,  used his position as a deputy to coerce four women into sleeping with him. Yes, you read that right, the incidents occurred between 16 and 23 years ago…

*cough*Breaking News *cough*

That sexual misconduct was reported to the Sutter County Sheriff, 15 years ago, and they completed both an internal investigation and a criminal one.  Not only was the deputy fired for his conduct, but he was criminally convicted on some lesser charges (because they were unable to prove the more serious ones) and he was placed on probation for five years.  Both the investigation and criminal case were completed in 2005, 14 YEARS AGO!

But somehow, to the cop haters at the SacBee, this is “Breaking News”????

Hell, the suspect completed his probation nearly a decade ago.

So, how is this case, which the Bee delves into at great length, evidence that this bill being proposed now is necessary?  Some 15 years before the bill was proposed, the “rogue sexual predator” cop was already held accountable, convicted and fired.

In fact, rather than show a need for new legislation, this case actually shows it is not needed because the system in place did what it was supposed to do – punish the dirty cop and get him removed from law enforcement.  Cops have long held that no one hates a dirty cop more than good cops, and this case is a perfect example of the right thing being done by the cops.

Instead, all this article was was yet another excuse for the cop hating, commie a-holes at the Sacramento Bee to drone on and on about how much they hate cops.  And sadly, the real victims of all this cop hate are the members of the general public because all that this media sanctioned cop hate does is compound the Ferguson Effect, and causes cops to become reluctant to do their jobs.

There is a reason that my first job at 13 years old was as a paper boy for the Sacramento Union… My dad refused to let me be a carrier for the “pinko commie, cop hating rag” that is the Sacramento Bee.

Thin Blue Line Hawaiian Shirts?

So, I have a thing for Hawaiian shirts because they are cool on hot days, and conveniently, due to their loose fit, they easily conceal my firearm.  However, I also like wearing pro-law enforcement attire. Sadly, no such single shirt currently exists, or at least I have been unable to find any despite my best efforts.

So, I put together this poll to try and gauge interest.  I figure if enough people show interest, perhaps I/we can convince one of the pro-LE shirt companies out there to produce them.

This is just a poll and by answering the question, you are in no way obligating yourself to a future purchase.  Thank you in advance for participating.

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How a Kid Who Hated Cops Became One

The following is a guest piece, written by a man who just recently got sworn in as a Deputy Sheriff.  It describes his personal evolution.

I got sworn in to the Sheriff’s Department as a Deputy Sheriff just recently after a long 22 weeks of POST Academy training. I remember day one of the academy thinking to myself, “Here we go. It’s going to be a long 22 weeks.” Those 22 weeks passed me by like if it was a dream. We started off with nearly 100 recruits and just shy of 70 graduated.  However, let’s rewind the clock back to a different life.

As a youngster in the 90’s and 2000’s, I did not like cops nor did I trust them because I had negative experiences with cops as a kid. I remember one time the first words out of a cop’s mouth toward me was “are you on parole or probation?” when all I was doing was sitting in a park watching a movie on my laptop as a college kid back in 2012.

The environment I grew up in taught me that it was an “us vs. them attitude,” them being law enforcement. I thought to myself “well f**k them then”; they don’t care about answering our calls. A car in my neighborhood got broken into, it took cops like an hour for some kind of response, and even then I don’t remember them showing up that night. The influences and media portrayals of cops were that they could do what they want and get away with things because they have a badge. The Media tends to be full of shit when it comes to those portrayals.  Even the friends I had influenced me to have poor perceptions of a lifestyle I did not understand…that is until I started to fill out an application to join the Sheriff’s Department.

Initially, I filled out an application to join the Sheriff’s Department. I did my written exam and VPAT (Validated Physical Ability Test) along with my background packet. I remember scrolling through the massive background packet that every applicant had to fill out detailing every memory we could cram into our Personal History Statement. After the background packet was submitted, I had to follow up with a polygraph exam to re-confirm I was truthful throughout the entire packet. I can recall the faces of those applicants who failed the polygraph test.

To simply get hired as a recruit by an agency is very difficult because the background investigators will go through as much detail as time permits about a person’s life. Integrity and moral character are huge factors that are sought from a candidate. Take it as a hint that not every person from the street can even be considered to become a recruit, much less a cop without surviving a long hiring process and training.

One might wonder why the hell did I even apply to be a cop if I hated cops, right? As cliché as it sounds, I still have to say that my opinions toward cops did not change until July, 2016 when then Dallas Chief of Police David Brown said “We are hiring. Get out of that protest line and fill out an application.” As they say, “Can’t beat them? Then join them.” Quit being part of the problem and become part of the solution is what I told myself, and there I was, filling out an application. If it wasn’t for the random shared post that I somehow ran into which Deputy Matt shared I would have never liked his page nor become more aware of how a first responder thinks. I followed up on posts written and shared by the page admins through the years since July 2016.

Moving forward into October 2018, I remember going on my first ride along. I can recall vividly the events of that night.  I remember leaving the station at the end of the shift with a different perspective than I came into the station with. It’s one thing to hear about it from news or online, it’s another thing to witness it first-hand. Later that year I was offered the position of DST (Deputy Sheriff Trainee) and got my academy start date. I was excited and naïve on what waited for me.

Throughout the academy, I learned to do many things with my fellow classmates to the point where we started to shed our individualism and come together as one. One of the hard realities that our class had to come to terms with was the risk involved with the career paths we have chosen. Deputy Matt once wrote an article about having to attend officer funerals; I believe it was for Sacramento Sheriff’s Department Dep. Robert “Bob” French.  I had to re-read that article to help me get the words out of my mind as I struggled to articulate myself to write this.

I remember attending my first officer funeral and it hit home, because I can still hear the voice of a panicked deputy as he called out “officer down” on the radio; everyone stopped doing what they were doing and listened to the radio. Deputy Matt would harp on recent events and saying that there is a war on cops. I always thought that he was exaggerating a bit before I started the academy. Since then, I’ve sat down for 2 officer funerals during my academy and witnessed a department tradition done for the EOW (End of Watch) anniversaries of deputies. I can still see the sister of Deputy (name removed) cry over his gravestone after all these years.

It’s funny looking back at the entire hiring process on how stringent the background investigators are when it comes to screening applicants; roughly 4 out of every 100 applicants that get screened are selected to be hired as Deputy Sheriff Trainees. It is said that out of those 4 applicants hired as recruits, about 3 make it to graduation. I graduated with just shy of 70 other faces, who I know I will always remember.  The sad truth is that I anticipate at least one of us to be gone before finishing our careers.

Now I see what Deputy Matt meant by the war on cops; it’s very real. The Media portray us as corrupt, abusive and because of that, the suspects are not afraid to pick a fight with us. The fight will come to each one of us one day and we must train and prepare for that fight when it comes.

Yes we wear a uniform, a badge, a vest, carry a gun, look serious and at times look militaristic, but underneath that uniform we still bleed, cry, love and fear like everyone else.

Instructors asked us recently “why are we here?” I’m here because as a Peace Officer, I want to use my knowledge to help close the gap of misunderstanding between the public and LEO’s and to clear the misconceptions that the media portray about my brothers and sisters in blue. Some may think that I’m a dumb, naïve boot; maybe, but I cannot let myself forget the “why am I here?” otherwise I may lose sight of who I am.

Why I Ardently Support The Second Amendment

Often at times like this, just after a cop has just been callously murdered by some shitbag with a gun, people ask me how it is that I, as a brother in blue, can be such a strong advocate of the second amendment.

I have recently been in the very shoes that many Sacramento PD officers now find themselves, again: a coworker murdered by a shitbag with a gun.

In fact, I have sadly been in those shoes multiple times in recent years, so I understand how emotional a time like this is. My heart breaks for my brothers and sisters at Sac PD, and for all those who mourn the loss of Officer Tara O’Sullivan.

It is at times like this that liberal politicians, leftist organizations and anti-gun groups will point to the incident and try to use images of grieving law enforcement officers as props in their attack on the rights of Americans, and try to justify that attack on rights under the guise of trying to protect cops.

Well, here is why, completely unfiltered (ie: strong language to follow).


I look at the worthless fucker who killed Sacramento Police Officer Tara O’Sullivan and I know that long before he fired the first shot at her and the other cops on scene, he violated many laws. He was, or should have been based on his misdemeanor domestic violence conviction, a prohibited person who could not legally own, let alone posses a firearm. Just from the photos provided by Sac PD in their press release, it is plainly visible that two of the firearms he used are illegal in California for anyone to have, let alone someone who cannot legally posses a gun at all. He had a long history of violent, criminal behavior, but here he was, out on the streets continuing that violent behavior. It was his violent behavior that prompted his girlfriend to call the cops for help that day.

Suspect’s weapons – both AR’s pictured are not CA legal due to standard configuration and standard mag releases.

As cops, all cops, even the few who do support gun control, we all know the following statement to be true:  Criminals do not obey the law.

Any criminal intent on getting a gun can and will get a gun, and any gun they want for that matter, if they want it bad enough.

Gun control laws do absolutely NOTHING to prevent criminals from getting guns, because criminals do not get guns through legal means. During my 22 year career, I encountered exactly two (2) people who had legally purchased gun and later used that gun to commit a crime.  One of those two people purchased his gun specifically to commit his crime.  He paid for it, waited the mandatory 10 day “cooling off” period, picked up his gun and drove straight to the crime scene where he shot his wife and then killed himself.

That criminals obtain their guns through illegal means  is not just my opinion based on 22 years of anecdotal evidence though. There are actually several studies confirming this as fact.

Politicians & Anti-gun Organizations

The same anti-gun liberals who “never let a good crisis go to waste” (Rahm Emanuel, anti-gun liberal politician) jump on these heart wrenching scenes and try to capture that emotion to push their anti-gun agenda. Very few things motivate people like raw emotion, and they know it, and they use that.

Those same assholes that want to outlaw firearms are the same fucksticks who are responsible for the suspect who killed Officer O’Sullivan, and thousands of others like him, for being on the streets. They have been constantly decriminalizing serious crimes, including some violent felonies, both through laws they pass on their own and others they put up to the voters disguised as such lies as “Safe schools and neighborhoods act.” They write bill after bill to give convicts more rights, to release them early from prisons, to completely forgive their criminal behavior, to allow them to serve on criminal juries, while they simultaneous write bills to take guns away from law abiding citizens who have done absolutely nothing wrong.

The anti-gun politicians are nothing but unscrupulous crap weasels who spread lies and count on people’s raw emotions to get what they want. Fuck them all!

Citizens & Self Defense

Lastly, as a cop, I have seen countless times, firsthand, the difference that having a gun makes for citizens. For many, it is the difference between life and death. For others, it is the difference between being a victim or not.

You see, we, the cops, want to do everything we can to protect the innocent. We wish we could be there exactly when someone needs us the most, to protect them from the criminals, especially the criminals with guns. But the fact of the matter is, that is physically impossible. This is not Minority Report. We do not know when and where bad things are going to happen, and there are only so many of us working and any given time. I explored this topic in depth many years ago, and still stand by every single word I wrote.

When seconds count, the cops are only minutes away.

Taking guns away from law abiding citizens only hurts them, and ironically just serves to make the criminals “job” safer.

Law abiding citizens use guns, most times without ever firing a shot, nearly 2 MILLION times a year to defend themselves and others. That is hundreds of times more defensive uses than people who are killed by criminals with guns. Ask yourself, whose side are you on, the victim’s or the criminal’s?

Any and all legislation should be driven by logical thought and analysis of its potential effectiveness, never emotion.

To those who want to do something to stop all this “gun violence,” stop focusing on the tool used. Instead focus on the perpetrator. You might be surprised to find nearly every single one has a long criminal history. Instead of trying to eliminate a tool that any skilled machinist can build in their garage, how about we start eliminating (removing from the streets) the worthless sacks of shit who plague our society.

Like all my brothers and sisters in blue, I grieve over the senseless, tragic loss of Officer Tara O’Sullivan, but I will not permit others to use my emotions to manipulate me.

Today, and every day, I ardently support the second amendment, because I am not a moron!


Well, shit!  Apparently I’ve been dealing with the adverse effect of “cumulative PTSD” for about seven (7) years, but I had no idea it was even a thing, let alone that I was dealing with it. I just knew some things were not right, but did not know why.

Before I go any further, this is not intended as a “woe is me” story.  This is a “if this sounds like you, please get some help so you can get better” story.  Preferably, do it BEFORE you leave the job, unlike me, so workers comp or some other insurance will cover it, hopefully.

Let me back up a few weeks and fill in some blanks.  As I have mentioned before, I am friends with a number of folks who run other pro-LE Facebook pages and we have a group where we can privately talk amongst ourselves.  Oddly enough, this group has turned out to be one of the best things to happen to me, on the internet that is.  We are able to share things with each other and get honest, no BS answers, and in the best cop fashion, with absolutely no sugar coating.

A couple quick notes to make what will follow make more sense.  I retired back in January and the plan was to escape California post haste.  Sadly, a few things have come up family wise that have delayed our great escape indefinitely.  While my retirement is more than adequate to live on in Texas, in California it is barely enough to scrape by, so I decided to seek part-time employment to get me by until we can vacate, and since I know and love cop work, I figure why not find a part-time cop gig.  With that in mind, I submitted an application with a small local agency.

That was when I ran into problems, again.  What follows is a post I shared with the group I mentioned above.  For those easily offended by curse words, this is your warning that some will follow.

I mentioned about 2 weeks ago that I had applied for a reserve officer position with a small local agency. After I spoke with the chief, a man I have known a long time, I got scheduled for a formal interview, to be followed by a complete background and a psych.

Within hours of getting scheduled for the interview, I was in full-on panic mode, completely mentally imploding, lying on the couch unable to do anything. It was like a full on panic attack or something. I have never felt anything like it.

The next morning, still barely able to function, I emailed the chief and pulled my application. Almost immediately, I felt better, and by that evening, I was back to normal.

What the fuck?

I’ve not said anything to anyone, other than my wife, about this up until now.

My bizarre mental meltdown freaked my wife out to the point that she asked me if I was feeling suicidal. Just to be clear, I am absolutely NOT remotely feeling suicidal. She just sees stuff on TV and movies about cops and vets committing suicide so she that was the first thing that went through her head.

I’m really not sure what is going on with me. I know it is not PTSD. Nothing about this fits the criteria for PTSD. I’m not having nightmares about shootings or calls I was on. I am not remotely feeling suicidal, or homicidal. I am not reliving incidents. None of the things that would bring about a diagnosis of PTSD, but there is definitely something going on.

I have specifically noticed that since my most recent shooting in 2011, things that never used to bother me much, if at all, really get to me.  Interviews for jobs used to be slightly stressful, but not incapacitating like they have been since that shooting.

Back about 5 years ago, I was one of four candidates for a spot in our air ops division as the observer (TFO). During one of the trial flights while working as the TFO, something I had done a number of times both before and since, my brain decided to implode on me and I started having a similar incident to what happened 2 weeks ago, just not to the same extreme. My heart rate was up, I felt short of breath and nauseous. It got so bad I had to have the pilot take me to the hangar in the middle of the flight. At the time, I played it off as airsickness, but it wasn’t.

A couple years later, another spot at air ops opened up and as soon as I submitted my application, I felt that same feeling coming on, so I pulled my application within hours.

Then 2 weeks ago with that reserve spot, it was the same feeling, only times about 100.

I don’t fucking get it. Shit that should stress me out, like going to active shootings before I retired, never fucking phased me at all. When I was at the shooting where my academy mate Bob French got killed (…/tired-of-burying-coworkers/) I was calm as fuck, handling business as if I had never left patrol.

But now, just the simple act of applying for the position of a reserve officer causes me to melt down and completely incapacitates me.

So I say again, what the actual fuck?

Much to my surprise, a number of the replies I got were “sounds like PTSD to me.”  One person in particular alluded to something I had never heard of, cumulative PTSD.  You see, I was looking at my symptoms and comparing that to an older clinical diagnosis model for PTSD from 15+ years ago, a list I got from the shrink I saw after my most recent OIS.  Turns out, not surprisingly, some things have changed and there has been a lot of research done on PTSD during those years which has yielded a better understanding of the subject.

We all have long known that first responders get changed by the things they routinely encounter on the job.  We deal with stuff that is not normal on a daily basis, things that can cause a normal person to experience a traditional onset of PTSD, but to us it is just another day at work.  Add to that the stress of 1) dealing with groups that exist solely to share their hatred of cops, 2) a media that makes us a constant target for not only those cop hating groups, but thanks to their biased reporting, the general public as well, 3) politicians, up to and including the former POTUS, that love to throw us under the bus in order to curry favor with their voter base, 4) the constant social media onslaught against our profession, and 5) burying our coworkers who were murdered, time and again.  That prolonged exposure to unnatural shit and negative attitudes is not good for us, and they are now considering the results of that prolonged exposure to be “cumulative PTSD.” 

I found a good article about cumulative PTSD on PoliceOne (not a big fan of theirs lately based on the AP articles they have chosen to publish, but this particular article is good info).  If you have been a first responder for any length of time, I highly recommend you read the article and look at the list of symptoms.  I was shocked as I went down the list and found that about 60% of them described me.

This is where I talk about how lucky I am.  My former union has a counselor they deal with for this type of stuff, and they also have a fund that allows them to offer this service free to members.  While I am no longer a member, I was when I incurred this “injury.”  I put that word in quotes because many of us don’t want to admit we are injured, but that is exactly what PTSD is, an injury.  Thankfully a union rep that is in the group I mentioned contacted me and offered to get me to the counselor they deal with, and I took them up on it.

I met with the counselor for the first time yesterday, and she told me that I am most definitely dealing with some cumulative PTSD.   In talking to her, I remembered another issue I encountered.  About the same time that I was putting in for Air Ops the first time, I was dealing with some major digestive system issues that caused me to lose about 20 pounds and be on light duty for about 6 weeks.  My doctor thought it was Crohn’s Disease, of which I have a family history, but all the extensive and highly invasive tests came back negative.  At that point, they could not find a medical cause and told me it was “just stress.”  Eventually the symptoms went away, so I just forgot about it, until yesterday. 

Cops are great for just rubbing some dirt on it, ignoring what bothers them, pushing it down and pressing on.  But take it from me, that won’t make this better.  In fact, doing that makes this worse.  I am writing this piece in hopes that it might help someone dealing with the same issues realize you are not alone, and you are not abnormal.  

My wife had been telling me for a long time that she thought I had some PTSD, but not only did my symptoms not match the traditional PTSD diagnosis list, but dammit, I did not want to admit I might have a problem.  Turns out, she was right, again.

For me, it took my recent job application meltdown to wake me up.  Please don’t let it get to that point for you.  Look at the list of symptoms.  If you see yourself in that list, do not ignore it.  Do not just rub some dirt in it and press on.  Get some help, so you can get back to normal.  If you are worried about potential issues on the job, there are confidential resources that you can reach out to on your own.  No one at your employer needs to know. 

You have dedicated your professional life to helping the public.  You owe it to yourself, your family and friends to take care of you also. 

Resources (not remotely comprehensive):

  • Safe Call Now – Safe Call Now is a confidential, comprehensive, 24-hour crisis referral service for all public safety employees, all emergency services personnel and their family members nationwide
  • Call For BackupHumanizing the Badge’s unique #CallForBackup Suicide Awareness and Prevention Campaign seeks to address those concerns, and to teach officers how to help one another – and themselves – deal with the unique stresses of their chosen profession.
  • The Wounded Blue – The mission of The Wounded Blue is to assist injured law enforcement officers who are injured physically and psychologically
  • Code 9 Project – Our mission is to provide education, support and viable self-help tools to all Public Safety Personnel and their families for the purpose of managing and reducing the compressive stress effects, such as PTSD and suicide. 

There are lots of resources out there. If you know of another, verified, legitimate resource, please feel free to provide us with their information so that they may be added to the list above. The best way to do that is to message us at our Facebook page.

Mayor Jacob Frey is a Dangerous Moron

Minneapolis Mayor Jacob Frey is a complete freaking moron, and if the Chief Medaria Arradondo agrees with him, as the Star Tribune article seems to indicate, same goes for him.

“When you’re conditioned to believe that every person encountered poses a threat to your existence, you simply cannot be expected to build meaningful relationships with those same people.”

This is not “fear based training.”  That is officer safety 101, you dolt!

As cops, every time we encounter people in the execution of our duties, initially we do not know who we are dealing with, whether or not they are wanted, what they may have just done, or what they are willing to do to avoid going to jail. Being cognizant of that fact has absolutely NOTHING to do with “warrior training,” whatever the hell that is, but instead it is appropriately referred to as caution.

Being cautious is how you don’t get killed by the seemingly normal looking guy you just pulled over for rolling a stop sign or a broken taillight, who unbeknownst to you, just murdered his girlfriend after a drunken argument, or say the guy you stopped for a missing registration sticker who just blew up a federal building

This idiot mayor would have cops walking up as officer friendly, not considering the driver or passengers as potential threats as they politely greet that man driving away from the murder he just committed, or the guy who committed the largest mass murder by a single suspect in American history.

This is what happens when you don’t consider everyone a threat.

Cops should absolutely consider everyone a threat, until they prove otherwise. That is how cops survive their career, at least physically (it is very debilitating mentally in the long run). It is called officer safety. It is called vigilance. It is what keeps cops alive.

Letting your guard down while in public, in uniform, gets cops killed. It happens multiple times every single year. Sometimes it happens when they are in a restaurant having breakfast, sometimes at lunch, sometimes when they are parked in a car, and sometimes when you are dealing with a simple car crash

Those are just four of the hundreds of ambushes on cops that have occurred during recent years.  Not all ambushes are fatal, and not all of them make the news, let alone the national news.  You see, it is not very newsworthy when cops get attacked in the line of duty and survive, but it happens 60,000 times a year, and of those 60,000 times, in 2017, more than 17,000 officers were injured (statistics from 2017 LEOKA report). 

Knowing the facts, that cops get assaulted by the people we contact on a very frequent basis, is not “fear based training.”  It is REALITY based training.  So, despite what the idiotic Mayor Frey thinks, there is a damned good reason that officer safety training requires cop’s to consider everyone they encounter as a potential threat.  Because they are. 

Jacob Frey perfectly exemplifies the reason that people with no experience, no expertise and no relevant training should absolutely NOT be making rules about police training, or as we are seeing in California right now with AB 392, attempting to write laws about use of force.  They do not possess the knowledge of the facts or the statistics that have, over the past couple hundred years, shaped the training cops receive.  But what makes people like Frey and the California legislators even more dangerous is that they have zero skin in the game.  No matter how wrong they might be, it will never pose a danger to them. 

And really, who cares if a bunch of silly cops get hurt or killed, right? After all, for the last decade or so, hating on the cops has been part of the Democrat/Socialist platform.

Police Chief Fired For “Wrong Think”

A police chief of a joint college police force, Mount Holyoke and Smith Colleges, has been removed from office for the unforgivable crime of “wrong think.”

Technically, he was placed on administrative leave, while they search for a replacement… So yeah, basically fired.

What in the ever loving hell is going on with our society???? Seriously, WTAF?!?!

A police chief of a joint college police force, Mount Holyoke and Smith Colleges, has been removed from office for the unforgivable crime of “wrong think.”

In an email to the college on Wednesday evening, Smith College President Kathleen McCartney said that members of the campus community “have voiced a lack of trust” in Daniel Hect, who took over as chief of the two campuses’ shared police department on Feb. 18.

He was removed from office because, on Twitter, he had the unmitigated audacity to like two tweets, one from an unspecified user saying “BUILD THAT WALL!” and the other, gasp, when the NRA tweeted “Merry Christmas.”

Students recently drew attention to a few posts they say Hect previously had “liked” on Twitter, including one instructing President Donald Trump to “BUILD THAT WALL!” and another in which the National Rifle Association wishes people a Merry Christmas. Hect’s Twitter profile has since been deleted.

No, I am not kidding. Read the full article yourself if you don’t believe me. 

Of course, the college says his firing has nothing to do with his political beliefs, but refuses to state the actual reason he was removed. 

I mean, I get being concerned about something a person personally said or did, but liking a tweet? And especially ridiculously benign tweets like that?

This is beyond ludicrous!!!

Meanwhile, a UC Davis professor actually tweets that he wants cops killed and they do nothing.

America is under attack by flaming crybaby hypocrites on the left who actually are employing Nazi tactics, while they scream, point fingers and call those they differ with, Nazis.  You seriously could not make this crap up.

Apparently, the college president wants to set a new precedent, where those who scream and yell the loudest get their way. Congratulations morons, way to prepare those students for the real world. (<- sarcasm)

An Important Conversation About Cops, Soldiers, PTSD and Suicide

There is a private group on Facebook that a number of us who run law enforcement related pages belong to. We use it to discuss all sorts of things that we cannot talk about in public, from stupid jokes to stressful things going on in our own lives or with our own agencies. Not every member is a cop. Some are former cops, some are cop spouses, some are just highly outspoken supporters of law enforcement. Cops generally get other cops, but these folks also understand all the other crap that comes along with running a pro-LE social media page, the good and the bad. It truly is one of my favorite places in all of social media.

Every once in a while, a conversation in that group touches on something extremely important and should be shared publicly. The following fairly long conversation is one of those. I am sharing with the permission of the members who wrote these remarks, although most of their names have been removed for privacy.

Be forewarned, this was originally a private conversation between cops and warriors not intended for the public, so the language is raw. I chose to leave it that way because that is real life, and cops and warriors all know and accept that.

Landon Steele: (In sharing this ^^^ news article about two vets killing themselves at two different VA facilities in Georgia)

Goes double for you (cops). No deployments. You deploy everyday. I’m at a homeless shelter for vets and these guys are bitching about the VA. You guys/ ladies don’t get shit.

Longest rant ever. Been asked about this a few times today by several veterans on the ranch. Here’s my take.

Most vets aren’t fucked up because of some shit they saw or did, they’re fucked up for a few other reasons. They were sent to war by a society that abhors violence to the point squirt guns for a 5 year old is bright orange and the taking of it to school will get a call for SWAT. However that same society can’t get enough killing and war on Netflix.

Strange right?

So these young warfighers come back from the military (not combat necessarily) where they literally were taught to be appropriately violent, as are a lot of healthy, functional societies and that tribe is now gone.

They don’t miss war or killing or any of that shit, they miss the closeness of the tribe. Gender, race, sexual preference didn’t matter because their life depended on everyone in their tribe.

Now they come home after fighting the LONGEST fucking war in American history and their tribe is gone.

To add insult to injury they return to a society that doesn’t have a roll in what they did in war as the native Americans did, or Israelis do, because everyone in those societies had to fight so everyone understands and PTS was, or is, pretty much non-existent. But in America its kinda assumed now that if you did some shit overseas you must have the PTSDAIDS so eventually troops think they do.

There’s nothing wrong with our troops, there’s something really fucked up about what they come back to.

The VA is the largest medical system in the US, funded by people who voted for politicians who literally wish we would all go away. Over worked, underfunded. The employees at the VA for the most part are vets or civilians who literally care beyond words, but the system is dicked up because our society is dicked up.

Notice I didn’t say anything was wrong with America because we still have enough people who knowingly sacrifice their safety or lives and fully expect not to get a fair health deal after.

Before we point the veteran finger of righteousness at the VA, let’s look at who funds them, who did you vote for?

When we fix us as a society then the VA won’t have these issues. In the interim, your best, brightest and most motivation Americans will be killing themselves because we ALL failed them.

Landon Steele: I would say there are compounding factors that actually make your (cops’) current job harder and reintegration harder because it’s every time you get off shit, not a 6 or 9 month break. You roll two deep or alone so it’s gotta be more fucked then when I worked.

“AJ”: There’s just so much wrong with America right now. The entire United States focus is on sexual identity, racial tension, and police brutality.

Day in and day out I see mental health problems. Often I see veterans who have been pushed back and back over and over by the VA, and they aren’t allowed to see any other MD or psych. Men are stubborn. If you push us back enough times we just say fuck it and fix it on our own, which is resulting in all of these suicides by military and LE. 

There’s so many options, but those options get burned out so fast because once an option opens, everyone flocks to them because in the beginning they actually give a damn about patients. Govt. needs to realize the mental health issues we have right now and throw triple the amount of money into the pot because it is rapidly becoming a life and death issue for them, and people they want with them. Never did you hear about suicide by cop until the last 10 or so years. Now it’s almost daily.

Landon Steele: bro, what fucks me up is my guys (soldiers) not being able to do it and do crazy shit on purpose to get blue (cops) to shoot them. It fucks the officer up when they find out why the weapon was empty. It’s the same team. Bridging that gap is huge and problematic. (emphasis added by me)

“AJ”: Yep. And it blows bringing them in for a psych and the doc releasing them, only to get re-dispatched to that residence days later to them with their skull in pieces dead. These people specializing in mental health fail these people daily because they reject the “maybes” cause all the fucking facilities are full

Landon Steele: Why there isn’t a med system for LEO or a preventative clause that says just because an officer has PTS doesn’t mean the chief can pull your shit?

Me (Matt): I never served in the military, but I think you might be onto something brother. As for cops, I’ve said the same thing. We don’t get a 6 month deployment, we are deployed for our entire career, and being in condition orange all the time is not good for you. It helps you survive the day, but in the long run, that level of heightened awareness for extended periods of time is very bad for the human body and mind.

LT: Hits home Matt. I was in D.C. for police week few years ago. In D.C. I found that I couldn’t relax, even in the company of cops, because I was in fucking D.C.

I couldn’t relax enough to sleep thinking someone was going to break in the house we rented or steal my car parked in the alley. I was on vacation surrounded by my own team and was basically standing sentry the whole time. It robbed me of actually enjoying police week.

“KD” (a cop’s wife): The only place I’ve ever seen my husband (the cop) completely relax was vacationing with our son at Shades of Green; 100% ID check and a closed campus was a whole new world. It was amazing.

“Paddy”: I did all 3…

Military (didn’t do shit- peacetime Army).

Cop (saw my fair share)

PMC (private military contractor) in Iraq (on the road or taking IDF every day)

Came back seriously fucked up- physically and mentally. What kept me together (barely at times) was the brotherhood.

Men & women I knew calling up randomly to say hi and see how I was doing. I did the same for them. All of us were a bit off- but it didn’t matter.

Guy named Boone Cutler before he came up with the Spartan Pledge coined another term:

Unassimilated Warfighter (emphasis added)

It resonated with me and addresses the societal issues anyone who runs towards gunfire deals with.

We are our own society, our own class, and we look after our own. We have our own codes of behavior, our own ethical standards, our own moral standards. 

IMO fitting into modern society and culture, or trying to, is a bad thing. Square pegs in round holes. Modern society is diametrically opposed to the values most of us hold.

Individual accountability, personal responsibility, honor, loyalty, steadfastness… these words at best have no meaning for society at large and at worst are derided and mocked.

They hate us because we don’t care about race, religion, sexuality, or gender. Our only metrics are “Can we trust you” and “Are you squared away”.

We look down on those who seek to play the victim, to portray themselves as weak as possible. Society celebrates them and makes them heroes.

Fuck that noise.

Honest question: Would the average Veteran, cop, firefighter, or medic ever come up with “I was out and two guys who voted for someone else beat me up- feel sorry for me”?

Now if I said would we come up with “I was out and got jumped by 4 dudes and I knocked them all smooth the fuck out”…. 😂

Shit- after Trump got elected there was a 17% spike in “hate crime” attributable to false reports.

I think that a lot of the stressors (outside of financial ones) come from trying to fit into a society that stands opposed to what we carry in our souls, who we are as human beings.

When I finally realized that my society consists of those who have walked the line, not the whining bunch of intersectional dipshits that colleges churn out, shit started getting better.

“Chuy”: Damn Bro, This.^^^

Me: No fucking shit, Chuy! You (Paddy) need to post that somewhere that I can share it on my page.

In fact, the combo of yours and Landon’s should be a blog post somewhere (after that, they all gave me permission to copy and paste it here)

“KD”: Most ancient and tribal societies had a warrior class; they weren’t expected to be ‘like everyone else’ when they weren’t in the thick of the fight. It’s like expecting a high drive Malinois to *also* be a Golden Retriever the minute the harness comes off.

We’ve been so safe here, for so long, society has lost touch with why you’re needed. It’s why Kipling wrote ‘Tommy’, in 1890.

And Landon, I’ve seen you defending LE on other threads when their experience is minimized and belittled, and I appreciate you so much for that.

I honestly believe this is a very important conversation that needs to be shared both with soldiers and cops. We don’t have the same jobs, but we do have the same kind of brotherhood. We are all on the same side, and we need to look out for one another. That starts with recognizing what causes the problems we both face, which is essentially the same problem: modern society does not want us, does not want to be reminded we exist, and we generally don’t fit in. 

In my opinion, and clearly that of some others, that is what is causing the very high suicide rate among soldiers and cops.

(For those wondering who Landon Steele is, he is not a cop. He is a US combat medic, PMC, and has worked private, armed security in conjunction with cops. If you don’t know who he is, it might be worth a google… Plus, there is this video.)

Becerra Files for Emergency Stay in Overturning of CA’s Magazine Capacity Law

On April 1st, three days after Federal Court Judge Robert Benitez ruled California’s magazine capacity law unconstitutional, Attorney General Xavier Becerra filed for an emergency stay pending appeal.

On April 1st, a mere three days after Federal Court Judge Robert Benitez ruled California’s magazine capacity law unconstitutional and granted summary judgment to the plaintiffs, Attorney General Xavier Becerra filed several documents requesting an emergency stay in the vacating of the unconstitutional law, pending an appeal to the 9th Circuit.  In other words, he is appealing the decision and is asking the courts to, at least temporarily, undo Judge Benitez’s ruling.

In filing for the emergency stay, Becerra says the following:

“Even if this Court, or the Ninth Circuit, ultimately issues a stay pending appeal, the State will suffer irreparable injury if LCMs are permitted to flow into the State in the interim.”

I find it quite entertaining that the Attorney General is claiming that there will be “irreparable injury” to the state by allowing “LCMs” (large capacity magazines) to enter the state, when the one of the reasons Judge Benitez granted summary judgment in the first place was the fact that the state was unable to prove in the slightest that a magazine ban prevents harm, and would thus, possibly, be a reason to allow a law which clearly violates the Second Amendment.

Becerra continues further on in the application, saying:

 “Defendant brings this ex parte application for good cause on the ground that the State will suffer irreparable and immediate injury until a stay pending appeal is issued.  California has restricted the acquisition of LCMs for nearly two decades, and until the Judgment is stayed pending appeal, individuals will be free to acquire new LCMs, and there is evidence that sales have begun already.”

The fact that Becerra points to the longstanding prohibition in California against the importation of “LCMs” as part of his reasoning for the emergency stay should make one wonder if he even read the ruling in which the law was found to be unconstitutional.  Specifically, the following two remarks from Judge Benitez’s ruling would directly apply to the entire basis of the emergency stay request.

“The AG’s evidence demonstrates that mass shootings in California are rare, and its criminalization of large capacity magazine acquisition and possession has had no effect on reducing the number of shots a perpetrator can fire.” (page 51, line 16)


“No case has held that intermediate scrutiny would permit a state to impinge even slightly on the Second Amendment right by employing a known failed experiment. Congress tried for a decade the nationwide experiment of prohibiting large capacity magazines. It failed. California has continued the failed experiment for another decade and now suggests that it may continue to do so ad infinitum without demonstrating success. That makes no sense.” (page 59, line 14)

I’m no lawyer.  The only law classes I have ever taken were nearly 30 years ago when I was getting my criminal justice degree from CSU Sacramento.  But even this dumb former street cop is smart enough to know that using a failed argument, one that was specifically cited in the ruling of a case in one direction, really does not hold much weight when trying to argue that ruling should have gone the other way.  That said, this is California, and we do have a plethora of liberal activist judges, so I would not be in the least bit surprised if Becerra is able to get this emergency stay granted. 

In the short term, a stay placed on the ruling, and the pending appeal to the 9th Circuit Court of Appeals is bad news for California gun owners.  It would mean that we are still in the same boat that we have been in since 1994, and that being we are unable to legally purchase standard capacity magazines. 

BUT this appeal will be good news for the entire nation, because if the 9th Circuit hears the case and agrees with Judge Benitez, it will only strengthen the case law standing of the original summary judgment ruling.  If the 9th Circuit disagrees with the ruling, then the case will be appealed to the Supreme Court, which I would hope would hear the case so as to finally establish some continuity to the various circuit and district court rulings on the matter, and the fact that the Supreme Court continues to grow more constitutionally conservative with the appointment of new judges, this would be a good thing for gun owners across the country. 

Administrators vs. Leaders

Anyone who has worked in law enforcement for any length of time can tell you which supervisors are the administrators, and which are the leaders.  There is a distinct difference between the two.

Anyone who has worked in law enforcement for any length of time can tell you which supervisors are the administrators, and which are the leaders.  There is a distinct difference between the two.  And yes, someone who is a leader can also administrate, but someone who is seen as an administrator rarely functions as a leader.  In fact, filling the role of a leader does not even require rank, just the act of taking a leadership role.  Speaking as a line level guy, we love to see leaders promoted as it shows someone recognizes their leadership abilities.  Sadly, as a line level guy, we sometimes, or often depending on the agency, see people promoted who are destined to be nothing but lousy administrators.

Which brings me to Lieutenant Yulanda Williams of the San Francisco PD.  And before I go any further, I am going to preface this by saying this has NOTHING to do with her ethnicity, although I guaran-damn-tee you someone is going to claim it does, but rather is specifically in response to her apparent total lack of officer safety, and just plain old common sense.  However, if you were to do an quick google search of her name, you would find she is a darling of the mainstream media, because she is fighting “racism in policing,” and stuff.

Here is a picture from 2017 of then Sergeant Yulonda Williams.  This was picture was taken in the Richmond Walmart.  Please note she is shopping, in full uniform, but has no duty belt.  It is not just the lack of a duty belt, but in fact she has no gun at all (she is right handed based on other photos).  Besides the lack of a firearm while in full uniform, please note the slip-on shoes which are also clearly not part of the uniform.


To people not in law enforcement, this might seem nitpicky, but every cop on the planet knows, or should know, you don’t go out in public in uniform unarmed.  Especially not to a Walmart in the hood!  Believe it or not, there are people out there who don’t like the cops, who have ambushed cops based on nothing more than their uniform, and without a weapon you are nothing but a victim waiting to happen.

The fact of the matter is, most agencies, including the one I just retired from, have policies against this very behavior for the very reason I noted.

Jump forward a couple years, and up one rank, and here is now Lieutenant Yulanda Williams at a department related function, in full uniform, posing in line with a number of other administrators, including the actual Chief of Police, Bill Scott.


I am completely flabbergasted by this woman’s hair.

Not because I have anything against a black person sporting a natural hairdo, not that a fro is really “natural” anyway, but because this woman has less officer safety related common sense than my 11 year old son, who has been known to run out in front of cars in parking lots.  Look at how far her hair is protruding forward from her face.  She would be lucky to have a 45 degree field of view.

Seriously, her hairdo reminds me of a young Carrot Top.


And for the non-cops in the room wondering; “Why is that an issue?”  Again, it is officer safety 101.  You do not do something to artificially limit your field of view because it makes you susceptible to an attack from the side or rear.  The human field of view is around 180 degrees, granted the closer you reach the periphery of that field, the less clear the image becomes, but you can see things there, like a person walking toward you, or a punch coming your way.


To test this is rather simple.  When facing straight ahead, extend your arms out from your sides and slightly back at shoulder height.  While still looking straight ahead, bring your arms forward until you can just see the movement in your peripheral vision.  Now turn your head and see where your arms are.  If you have never done this, you might be surprised.

Now, take your hands flat, fingers extended upward, and put them up against your cheeks forming a tunnel through which you can look.  That is the field of view that Lt. Williams has thanks to her hairdo.


Now, from a layperson’s perspective, can you see where that HUGE lack of field of view just might be an officer safety issue?

There are reasons that law enforcement agencies have grooming standards and uniform policies, and it has absolutely nothing to do with “institutional racism” or any of that other SJW crap.  One of those reasons is to protect people too dumb to understand the importance of officer safety issues from themselves.  Apparently, either SFPD has no uniform policy at all, or they just refuse to enforce it with certain people whom the media has made their social justice darlings, and nothing destroys a law enforcement agency’s morale faster than hypocrites running the show.

A line from one of my all-time favorite movies, iRobot, comes to mind: “Lead by example.”

As a supervisor, as an administrator, what kind of example is Lt. Williams setting?  What kind of message does this send to the people she is supposed to supervise?

Knowing nothing about the woman at all except what I see in these photos, perhaps the criticism she claims to have received in the past, which she took as racism, was instead people pointing out simple facts to her, such as the fact that she clearly has a complete and total disregard for basic officer safety practices.

And with her basic officer safety so ridiculously lax, I can only imagine what her work product (cop work that is) is like.

However, the fact that she was promoted to the position of lieutenant, despite her obvious officer safety shortcomings is not surprising.  Especially not when you consider the SFPD chief just wrote a policy that prevents officers from making suspects sit while they are detained, yet another very basic officer safety move.

When SJW politics become more important to police administrators than the physical safety of their cops, things go very rapidly downhill.  In an era where it is impossible to recruit enough qualified candidates to fill vacancies, one would think administrators would be doing a better job to try and retain employees, but some instead seem to be trying to chase them off, taking the natural leaders with them, and leaving nothing but the administrators behind.   If that is not a recipe for disaster, I don’t know what is.